I look back at this blog that I have so terribly neglected for months and months and so many things are flooding through my mind, The most prevalent of these thoughts is the idea that what people say about me is true, Ill never open up.
Its astounding to read the things Ive typed on this bright screen for strangers to read. It is astounding only because these are the thoughts I would never share with even the closest of friends that I keep around me. These are the thoughts I wont share with the man I sleep next to most nights.
How do I have the strength to swim miles, lift weights, leg press, but I cant handle turning a few thoughts into words and speaking them out loud.
That would probably be so freeing.