I know I’ve said that you have to live for now because thats all you really have and not to dwell in the past [see earlier post on Time doesnt fit in a bottle], but regardless, in the movies and the real world… the past brings you to where you are and thus it is of the greatest importance.
You dont have to dwell in the past to appreciate its significance. So I’ve been thinking alot…. how did I end up here?
I am going to graduate college in 28 days. I am going to be a big kid… So who do I owe for that? I owe my highschool journalism teacher.. the one whose class I took my freshman year, and the one who convinced me to sign up for newspaper class so that I could continue writing, and continue to learn from her. Which I did…. for the rest of my highschool career.
I am in a relationship that has lasted 4 and a half years…. So who do I owe for that? I owe every guy who ever cheated on me.
I have amazing people who will stand by me through anything, and I call them my friends... So who do I owe for that? Well thats what we like to call a loaded question. I owe a lot of people for that. But to name a few… I, again oddly enough, owe the men who cheated on me. Ive become amazing friends with two of my ex boyfriend’s exes, one of which he cheated on my with. Still think I lead a super neat and tidy life? [how you could ever think that anyway is beyond me]. I owe my bitterness towards new people, because without it I would never have invited the new girl freshman year to sit with us just so I could be nosey… she is now my best friend. Same thing goes for one of my closest friends at college who I befriended because I was afraid she was too close to my boyfriend… funny how things turn out.
I owe so many people for who I am, but before this blog post turns into too much of an Oscar thank you speech, Ill leave you with this…
…. how did you get to where you are? The good… The bad… The ugly… I garuntee it contributed.